beautiful but dying

just checking in to see if you got my last request. Please don't take it as anything but a reqeust. Your art is fantastic. I am but someone who has wishes for wearing it on my body forever.

Can we turn her into a laying down position maybe with her head laying into folding arms so you don't see her face, but she's laying on her side, legs slightly bent? Does that make sense? Then have that blowing away thing going on? I just love this concept and feel that it captures everything. I just need it to be horizontal and go on my lower back.

OK well let me know what you want to do and I will work on your suggestions. If you wanted to buy both at 200$ after the contest is up you can just email me # since most of my clients just pay me directly through paypal. If not just let me know what direction you want me to go and how.

Thank you for sharing your story. It gives me great hope. I don't know which tat you should work on because I don't know how this works on the artist's end. Do you have to pay for each submission or what? I wouldn't want that. I cannot have a tat on my sides because of surgeries. My nerves under the skin are so criss crossed that if you touch my side it feels like my chest was just punched with a needle. The tat has to be on my back. I'm actually an activist now against sexual abuse and the cause is about to take off. This means I get invited to speak at a lot of events so I cannot have a tat on my arms or legs either. The back is where it belongs to as it is something I'm trying to also put behind me. I can't decide which tat or what to do. My son saw the flower burning one and knew exactly what it was and why. So perhaps that one is good too. I have no idea. I'm sure if I decide to do more than oe this site will let me buy two.

March 3rd 2010 I meant to say. I was just focusing on the 2009 Christmas date.

I just wanted to give you a little encouragement. Me and my half sister and brother came from a bit of a broken home. Each of us kids went through very much the same problems with the two marriages. I was more fortunate with my father as he was the second marriage, but the first marriage -my sister and brother’s father was a very heavy drug user. Ha ha you think it’s bad with just the one problem child, I can only imagine the turmoil all three of us kids put my mother through. My brother went into gang violence when he ran away from home around 14 my sister being his partner in crime followed suite since they were so close. They went to go live with their father, in the big city, and he pretty much sold my sister for drug money. Their father eventually died of a massive drug over dose. So in turn my sister went into a huge downward spiral. I was 8 years younger than them but the trouble they caused the family really influenced me when I grew up, they both really turned me against my parents when I was a teenager (I was too young to understand that my parents were just trying to protect me.) I went through a huge rebellion. This involved some very-extremely abusive relationships with older men. I'd rather not get into it all but it pretty much landed me in a hospital with a bottle of pills down my gullet because I could not take that life anymore, I was only 16 at the time. I dropped out of school and ran away and I pretty much told my mother it was all her fault that everything happened like it did. The biggest regrets I have in this life are some of the things I said to her in those years of my life.

Your thinking so how is this encouraging? Well let me tell you what happened in the 5 years following. That woman made every possible attempt to talk to us. Ha ha when my sister was 20 she threatened to get a restraining order against my mother, that is just how much she kept calling-kept checking up-kept digging. She wouldn't let us go. Not my sister, not my brother and bloody for sure not myself, let me tell you. Everytime we hit rock bottom and had nothing left (and this was frequent) guess who had a bed for us, food to eat and a place to get away from the horrible lives we started to choose for ourselves. The time, energy and money that woman wasted on us is remarkable. At the time these things were usually paid back with insults, belittlement, and entitlement by all three of us.
Move ahead 5 years
My sister is drug free, has a good job, a house and is usually visiting constantly. She goes on shopping trips with my mother and they usually discuss relationships late, late, late into the night.
My brother has a good full time job at the rigs and has a family of his own now, he calls and checks up and he gives my mom and dad grandbaby time when he can.
I have my own business and am happily married to the greatest man in the world. I made it a habit to call every other day. She pretty much became my only confident and friend besides my husband and father whom I also love dearly.
Don’t get me wrong we still all had our tiffs but if you were to look at us then and put us beside our former selves 5 years earlier you would have not of thought it was the same family.
Each of us kids reconciled and we all climbed our way back out of the dirt that we had shoveled onto ourselves. I doubt we could of done it without her. In 2009 we finally had our first Christmas together where we were all there… all the kids. It was the first time we were all together for a Christmas in 9 years. That is just how f*cked up things had been between us.

On March 3rd 2009 my mom passed away of a massive heart attack. It was totally out of the blue and she had had no other types of heart condition… She was only 54. It shook the whole family. I guess after all the ware of tare of having to love us three, it most of had its toll… Maybe she thought she had done her job as a mom, I don’t know. She brought us all back. She did that. I am going to miss that woman more than anyone will ever know.
So never give up on your daughter because you’ll never know what it means to have someone to come to in those dark days. As a mother you have a cross to bare and some crosses are heavier than others. I pray that life will be as fortunate to and yours as it has been to us. Behind every great person I think there Is a mother who kept picking them up and placing them on the path they were intended for. She made me believe that.

LOL now I don't know what to do. Do I keep the umbrella? Do I work on the flower/vine or the girl... Ahhh runs away confused j/k.

So if I made the girl with less smaller details and enlarged the hearts and what not so that it could easily be made into a back/rib piece or possibly a caff piece would that work? Or I had another idea where the girl would be placed on your left side and then I could extend the hearts/torn pieces of the girl so that they float all the way along to the the right side and instead of her name being on the top of the umbrella I could have it so that it floats a long with the torn pieces of the girl and her name ends up around the center of your back/ the spine area. I can attach a few pics of it placed on a back so that you can visualize how it will look.

Ok let me know.

I love this girl tattoo. I can't stop thinking of her. I just don't know where I would put something so large as I feel this would need to be large in scale. I do see the point of the umbrella now too. Sorry, I'm totally artistically illiterate which is why I'm on here to get help.

I'm really loving this whole fading idea thing. Could you also change the flower one from burning away to the same fading away concept? I think we are totally on the right track here. I love blues and greens and all the cool toned colors of flowers, again NO roses, Feeling very good about this.

I was asking for a horizontal tat, but this girl fading is so awesome. I would lose the umbrella though cuz we live in Orange County, CA. and it never rains. Maybe turn the umbrella into some kind of flower or butterfly with a bit more going off to ashes. I hope my requests are not insulting because I do appreciate your artistic visions and talents. My pain and suffering is very unique and I just really want to capture it fully before putting it on my body forever.

Submitted design #23327

My second idea is of a flower slowly consumed by the fire.

What once was beautiful is now just ashes and dust...

Let me know which you like better and I can hone it to your specific wants and needs.

Anyways I hope you like what I have done.

Submitted design #23325

She is fading...

This is a design of a girl melting away with the storm. Lifes circumstance ripping her apart until there is nothing left.